WHAT YOU'VE BEEN SOLD
The outdoor room you perform, and never once use.
They sold you the outdoor living room, and you bought all of it: the fire pit, the string lights, the rattan set with the cushions you bring in when it rains. Then you spent every fine evening hosting it, tidying it, lighting it and photographing it for the people over the fence, and you never once actually sat down in it. The lifestyle catalogue cropped out the part where you enjoy it.
Stop hosting the patio for the neighbours' benefit. Attend it.
