WHAT YOU'VE BEEN DOING
The leaf does the returns
Same tree as neroli, if you're curious: the blossom becomes the famous, expensive perfume and takes the bow; the leaf and twig become petitgrain and do the actual work. The economy runs on the organised ones and rewards the visible ones, and you have built a whole personality out of being reliable, because reliable cannot be rejected, only used. Somewhere your neroli is at a launch party. You are doing the returns.
Solidarity, in green.